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A message from the Universe for today:
"The veils begin to lift, Jonya, once defenses begin to fall. Be vulnerable. Fear only hides the truth."
12:58 pm edit: You know, I don't wanna. I'm keeping those defenses up there and I'm going to use them to my advantage.
I fought Edwin, Beth, Sir Tom, Nathaniel,..and someone else. Did some exchange of blows with a new fighter. Only was able to stay in armor 1.5 hours-ish and then was tired and the arms didn't want to move, hehe, so I quit and stood around and talked for a while. I did NOT reach full aggression so I worked on practicing footwork and ducking, in trying to get blows in. Nice when that happens. Even nicer when someone says the equivalent of "OMG! You weren't able to do that before! OMG!!" Anyway I had a blast.
People are interesting. I'm thinking about what I am doing with some of my friends, being supportive and sharing-woman with them while they are getting through some pretty tough happenings in their lives. Mary Oliver has three lines in her poem "Wild Geese" that so illuminates part of my personal philosophy and I want to share it cause these lines are bouncing through my head right now:
You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves. (trust your basic instincts. Your soul knows what it needs. It feeds you off the joys, off overcoming adversity, off laughter and love amongst friends. This line is not about amore but about agape love)
Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine. (Share. Communicate with me and oh, let me talk too. I also have despair, even if you don't see it. We all do.)
Meanwhile the world goes on. (Hurry Up! Or slow down, it matters not. Things continue to happen around you and they don't need your permission. Are you aware of it all? Parts of the world are aware of you...a continued awareness is by choice, btw.)
Tomorrow is the half-way point in my 30 day personal challenge so I'm evaluating myself. "An unexamined life is not worth living."
+ I am told my face is getting thinner. That's cool.
+ I've more endurance once I finally get the aggression up out on the practice floor. I still fight about two puny bouts and have to go into a corner and do mind games, cycling through those steps for about 10-15 minutes, but once it is up, it is up.
+ I was sorta angry that I can't stick to a aerobic machine for longer than 20 minutes but you know, they are boring. Even with good music. BUT I am ramping up the resistance levels more each time. I was at 10 at one point today, on a slow song, and I was never able to do 10 before.
- I'm not finding/making the pell time.
- I'm still fighting myself about getting out the door in the morning.
+ My goals are my goals, not anyone else's goals. One benefit of keeping a fighting journal on paper is clarity and honesty with myself. I'm becoming a stronger person for admitting stuff, exploring why I feel that way, and working through it. Plus I can establish goals and work on the progress in there, before I ever pick up a stick or a weight.
- No Drilling Partners! Gah, we are all too busy.
OK more later. Time to shower.
Practice was at Tom's at noon, and as Lyulf said, it was fight, fight, fight. Funny considering it was only Lyulf, Theoward, Fulke and myself in armor, and Fulke is just learning. He still got a couple of shots on Terry that stung, hehe. Lyulf wants me to work on the three-shot combo and out; I show both aggression and good strength and control to that point and then it wavers. So yeah, I'll work on that for awhile. 2.5 hours of armor time but not all of it on the floor, maybe a bit over a half on the floor. Terry and Bob were pretty constantly in each other's face and yeah, know how to take my turn plus dern it, I'm taking care of myself. Going where I need to go to get the stick time.
Picking up the Thursday night practices again. Yeah! And I'm going up north for Tuesday practice. So the mornings will be devoted to running or elleptical. No weights. After working the weights yesterday, I thought my arms were going to scream and refuse to move anymore at one point today. They did. I just had to rest a bit.
I guess the aggression was up pretty high cause I cried pretty much all the way home, and that after a meal. I'm still sorta weepy. I think it's aggression. Maybe a touch of depression. Right now hard to say.
OK, back to movie - Van was on the phone so I pounded this thing out. Laters!
Running off to fighter practice...
Well, getting ready for it. What a long couple of days of eating poorly, not exercising and sleeping in. We slept until 7 am each day, which is a lot of sleep for me. But maybe it helped me dodge the cold that is going around.
I did the weights today and my back is yelling at me. LOL. Silly muscles. Was not able to endure the treadmill or the elliptical more than 6-7 minutes each as my music died. Silly batteries. Did 15 minutes of pell work today but well, my heart was not in it. I just did it. I have fighter practice tomorrow, yeah, so that'll help. Must remember to stretch a lot.
I must retape a bastard sword tomorrow am. Also need to rebuild my left gauntlet and also sit down and redesign the 'look' and get butt flaps. Oh, yeah. and refit the gorget.
I do not have time to do housework...at all. Someone please tell me I don't have to??
I'm dolling up for a Halloween party and yeah, just lay the makeup on thick...
first squeezing a bit into my hand and then applying to my face. Washed my hands to see this:
Tomorrow might be scary, lol.
A friend is throwing a really nice party and I've been anticipating it for a couple of months. I just hope my new face is temporary or I maybe scaring people for a couple of days. Van did say the green makes my eyes really pretty, though.
Got back into Roch about 3, home about 4. All good! More later. Heading off to a party...just like a kid, heh? I am so looking forward to a workout tomorrow, though.
how accurate this one is? Son of a Preacher Man by sign language
And this is just silly.... Ninja
I got up to do my work out this morning and all the machines were taken. I stood there for a minute, contemplating stuff. Then I went running. Just took off for a couple of songs down the road. It was cold and dark. Felt lovely.
Conference sessions were good. Went to one about basic IT troubleshooting and file management in the morning. Did some talking and networking, had lunch, helped pack up the display to bring home, went to the 1 pm keynote. The last session of the day was about servant-leadership which I enjoyed quite a bit. It's very much in tune with some of my personal philosophies, though, so of course I did.
Found out that Tracy has this event on Flickr already. Yeah, Tracy!! Yeah, Flickr! Plus I got two blog posts up on the SELCO blog.
I think the chigger reaction is back but only about 5 little spots have popped up. Sure, itchy as all get-out but I'll survive, I think.
LOL this is a boring post; just not inspired. I guess I'm going to get backed and go to bed. Later!
