Wow, what a busy afternoon... I kept getting interrupted, trying to get a document out. All good interruptions, sure. That's what I'm there for! And yes, I got it out and yes, it will generate lots more work I hope. All good for the SELCO region though.
So it was raining when I got off work. I came home, threw on workout clothes and headed to the pell. Over twenty minutes of good work cause I'd gotten through two songs when the 6 pm whistle went off and then it was 15 after when I came in. Mix of just pounding and of slow work, trying to build some muscle memory into the feet. Range work, mixed in with that. Stopped when I looked down and realized I was really churning the grass and leaves into the mud. Not good!! Plus I was wet!
After a bite, I started sorting through the fabrics. I got rid of a trashbag of small stuff and have another full of pieces of things suitable for Anplica's floor loom's needs. We could have a tearing party and prep this stuff, wrap it into balls for her. Down to two huge tubs, lol. That's good, right? I fell in love all over again with the green baby cord. After I get the linen undertunic picked apart and resewn, I want to start working on that. I think it'll be lovely. Handweave the trim maybe? Ideas, ideas....
First though I want to try to get this house cleaned. Recently I was unable to provide crash space to a travelling friend because I was not very proud of the shape the house was in, and Van agrees. The main rooms are clean, just need to be detailed, like you would a car. We gotta get some curtains in the front room. And clear out stuff; shelves are full of books and DVDs we haven't touched for a long time. I am gathering up the Star Trek and Hobbity stuff for Beth. I've this stack of papers to sort and file in my workroom. Oh, and yeah, there's some dust <laughs hysterically>. Just a bit. Areas I don't touch very much are, well, building up. Bleah. Started with the fabric and with just walking around, straightening up stuff.
This is similar to the mental work I am doing, cleaning house internally. Focusing on what is important and that feeds me and working to minimize that which is in conflict with my mission statement. That paragraph above my blog posting? That is supposed to be the yardstick by which I guide my life. I spent a lot of thought on that; I've been tweaking it for at least a decade. I'm doing archetypal work now, reading Carolyn Myss' book 'Finding your Sacred Contract.' It's very interesting but slow work as I just do not trust my initial selections of archetypes and keep talking to them. She suggests doing this as part of the selection process but I feel I'm talking too much and maybe not listening enough.
And taking this back to the fighting - I am focusing on why I am fighting, what I hope to achieve, what feeds me and makes me want to work hard to get better. Cranking up the competitive drive, learning to count kills versus deaths and doing better next time. I do this to be with people I respect, working to perform at a level that is respectable and a bit higher each time.
Yeah. I'm just going to get out there and do it. Try hard, fight and take glory and glee in the attempts as well as the victories. And never, ever forget this is supposed to be fun!
